TODAY WAS A VERY BAD DAY. BAD ENOUGH TO WHERE I CALLED PASTORS PERSPECTIVE TO ASK FOR COUNSEL AND THREW A PITY PARTY. THANK GOD FOR THEIR LOVING AND UNDERSTANDING PERSONALITIES.  I LOVE CHERYL BRODERSON AND THE WAY THAT HER AND HER HUSBAND, PASTOR BRIAN MINISTER TOGETHER. WHEN I GOT OFF I WISHED THAT I WOULD HAVE JUST SOUGHT THE LORD. I'M SURE THAT PEOPLE THAT KNOW ME HEARD MY HEART CRY. I FEEL THAT THE WHOLE WORLD DOESN'T NEED TO KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON BUT I WAS DESPERATE. I HAD TO DISCIPLINE MY SON, WHICH TURNED INTO A BATTLE, TO THE POINT WHERE GABE HAD TO COME HOME FROM WORK. I PANIC AND VENT , WHICH IS NOT GOOD. INSTEAD, I NEED TO CALL OUT TO GOD. OTHER THAN MY TRIALS I WAS LOOKING AT THESE PICTURES AND I WAS ENCOURAGED.